For my final week of observations, I will be helping a student do his project. He did well on the last one that I helped him with so I was given the chance to work with him again. I'm excited, and scared because I still have trouble knowing how to help the student through a problem/ question rather than just giving away answers. Although I have looked into it a bit and will probably do again tonight. I will report during the week as we go along! I'm excited to help him again, and do better than I did before.
As I near the end of my Senior Year and the end of EDU and Observations, I realized that this year was the best year of my high school career. Thanks to EDU, I was able to realize that I didn't want to become a high school History teacher but instead, an English teacher. I have had so many wonderful experiences thanks to the EDU program. If I could go back and change one thing about it all, it would be that I actually learned more in class. The ILC is a great place to learn things on your own, and learn from experiences, but, I've never really learned anything in the classroom. And while that's good, it's also bad. I find whenever I tried to work with a student I had a very hard time trying to do so without giving away answers. I never challenged them, I never knew how to build rapport with students, and I don't know how to manage a classroom. Although my EDU experience was fun, I didn't learn much, and I'm excited to actually learn how to be a teacher in the fall.
Yesterday I was able to work with a student one on one with his project in world history over globalization. It was a little difficult because I feel like I didn't challenge him enough to do his work and figure the problems out himself. I wish that my teachers at the ILC would've taught me how to work with a student and challenge them instead of basically giving them the answer. It's hard and I don't know when I'm doing it, so I can't usually fix it until after.
This week has been kind of crazy for me personally. I have to make a college decision on May 1st, and I'm still having problems with where I want to go. But I have decided to change my focus of Secondary History to focusing on Secondary English. Being in an actual high school history class, even though I'm not really prepared to be here, I feel like I do not belong in a history class and I wouldn't have the opportunity to help students the way I think I would be able to if I was an English teacher. I am excited about the change and I look forward to being in a history class until the end of the year. I am thankful for this high school experience of being in a history classroom before I decided to become a history teacher forever.
Today we did an activity that I really liked and I think the student's benefited from. It's called " Chalk Talk". Usually you're supposed to use a chalk board, but we h=only have white boards. What you do is you pick a word that goes along with what you have been teaching. We used the word "Change". The students came up to the board and would write down what words came to mind or a sentence when they thought about the word on the board. In the first period, they started with "good" and "bad" and we ended up talking about the government, school, and civil rights. The second period we talked more about politics. It's a great game and I think that the students really have enjoyed and benefited from the activity! This would be a good idea to do when there will be a lot of students missing from class.
It's the end of the third week in my observations class, and the only other time I was this happy with my observations was in elementary. But I have come to the conclusion that my favorite is high school. I love the experience, everything about it. It's so much easier to get along with high school kids. Not just because I am around their age, but because I really enjoy being here, even with all of the hard things that come along with being in a high school classroom. It's very easy to build report with them and to talk to them. High school has also been my hardest observations because I learned what it felt like to have a strong desire to want to help a student and not be able to do that because they leave. High school has showed me my choice in secondary education was a good decision, and I'm excited that to attend a university in the fall to keep continuing to study to become a teacher.
Today I found out that my student who we had a problem with last week will not be returning to school. Although I am unsure of the reason, I am very upset to hear this. I was really looking forward to helping him when he returned to school. I just knew him for 3 days,but to hear him not coming back breaks my heart. This shows me that teaching will be difficult and there will be students that I have that I want to help,but won't be able to. I hope next time I find myself in this situation, I hope that I can help him/ her before something happens.
Today with my EDU teacher, I took the true colors test. My highest was Gold, and my second was tied Green and Blue. I learned that Gold's are very successful because they like to plan things out and love being prepared. With blue and green being my second highest, this means that I am intelligent and I care a lot about people, and I'm compassionate. Being a blue helps me in the teaching field because my ability to love students will help me be able to connect with my students and have good classroom experiences.
Yesterday was the end of my first week, and I already love it more than any other of my observations. This teacher allows me to help around the class and talk with the students, I even got to build report with some of my students, which is something that I haven't been able to do since I started observations. I am so excited to come back to this classroom next Tuesday!